Saturday, August 14, 2010

Dear Bubba,

Dear Bubba,



I just wanted to say that I am so sorry that your sweet little body has to go through so much. I wanted to tell you how VERY much I love you and that I hate having to give you injections of valium but I do it because I know that it will help the seizures stop. I want you to know that it means so much that all you want me to do is sing in your ear while you wait for the medication to kick in and your body to relax and give you relief. I want you to know how truly BRAVE I think you are. Oh, Bubba our long nights together are so hard but I know that no matter how difficult they might seem to me they are 100 times harder on you. I wish that I could take it all away. I wish that I could make your body treat you better. My heart breaks for you as I wipe away the tears while you are sleeping. I hate that you don’t get relief from the pain even in your sleep. Your road is a HARD and long one to walk but you will never ever have to walk it alone. When your body is too weak to walk… I will be there to carry you. I love you so much and I wish that Mommy’s kisses were just a little more powerful and could take your burdens away. I love you to Small World and back!!! Here’s to a better day tomorrow.


Love,


One Lucky Mommy

6 comments:

sunshine said...

he is lucky to have u rock

Aunt Kim said...

Julie.......I love your family SO much! I am so thankful to have "met" you through Amy. Give my love to the kiddos....Always keeping ya'll in my heart, thoughts, and prayers!!!!!
Love ya'll
"Aunt Kim"

Simply Sara said...

in tears again.
you are beautiful...
bubba is beautiful...

just
beautiful.

Kirsti said...

totally crying! he is such an amazing kid! i think it is wonderful that even though it is hard, you know that you are lucky to have him!

Sassy J said...

Julie, you are such a remarkable lady...you know God will hold your hand through your long, dark nights and when you are carrying Bubba, you can look back in the sand and see one set of prints....God is carrying you...my prayer for you tonight is rest and sweet dreams...Bubba is so lucky to have such a wonderful mommy such as you! Hugs, Jennifer

Anonymous said...

julie, i honestly believe that our heavenly father has a few chosen people in this world, that he places his most precious of precious to take care of. you are one of those chosen individuals. your a beautiful mother that handles her trails with grace. your son even though in pain smiles because your touch and your love is so great for him... your awesome and you have been such an example for me. hugs