Monday, May 31, 2010


Today I walked around in a haze with a nauseous stomach. I burst into tears any time I thought about tomorrow. Tomorrow I will have to hand my sweet little boy over and put my trust and faith in his surgical teams. I have had so many of my beautiful friends ask what they can do to help. I am truly grateful, really I am. I am often told that one of my biggest faults is not asking for help enough. Well, tonight I am asking you all for help. The most important and powerful thing that you can all do is pray. Please pray for Bubba. We have seen the blessing of prayer so many times in our lives. With God anything is possible!

Thank you all so much!

Sunday, May 30, 2010


Today was a good day!!!
Bubba woke up feeling good and had a smile on his face all day!
He was so fun to watch at church today.
If you sat any where near us you know what I am talking about. :)
After church we had family over so that they could enjoy...
This smile...

Some Yummy BBQ from this guy....
 and Fun entertainment from these Crazy kids!
Today Collin recieved LOTS and LOTS.....
Of cuddles and love.....
Bubba is one LOVED little boy!!
This day was special because so many people that we love came to support, play, and spend time with us...
All becuase.....

We love Bubba.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

I am just not feeling prepared

I am just not feeling prepared. I am slowly but surely marking things off of “the list” BUT I still just don’t feel prepared at all for this new stage in our lives. I have to admit, I am nervous. …. VERY nervous. This has been a hard year for Bubba. He has had multiple infections and is weaker and has regressed. So, this makes me worry… Ok, really I would worry anyways but this just adds to my already worried heart. The unknown is also hard. We have no idea how Bubba is going to react to having this tube sticking out of his stomach. I have a good idea of what it will be like but really…. I won’t know until we are there. I don’t know what his sweet little face will look like after the surgery, how bruised and swollen it “might” be. I don’t know how Regan will deal with us having to be away and take care of her brother and what she will think when she comes to see him. I worry…… I am a mother, it is in our blood. Wink!

Friday morning I got to go with my eternal boyfriend to the Temple on a morning date. We both needed the comfort that the temple brings. We prayed, we cried, and we talked about how good God is to us. As we were leaving I saw a friend. She came over and hugged me and sweetly reminded me that it is in God’s hands. No matter what…. It is in God’s hands.

I am grateful for prayer. I am grateful to be in constant communication with my Heavenly Father. The power of prayer is an amazing thing and such a wonderful gift. I know that Heavenly Father knows my heart and capabilities and will be there to help me when I am lacking. More times than not it is in my weakest moments that I feel my Heavenly Father’s love the most. I know where to turn for peace….. Peace he gives to me.

One of the most important things on “the list” was having some major FUN family time together. Well, today we had a blast doing some new things together. Collin LOVES trains…. Uhmmm… maybe a little obsessed. So, we decided to take him to ride a new train at a park around the corner. He LOVED it!!!

Then Daddy and Regan went out on the little lake in a pattle boat. They had fun together and were able to spend some much needed one on one time together. :)
Collin and I watched them while waving and yelling at them. After they were done the kids and I had to go on the train one more time before it was time to go.
                            It was a good day.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

{Happiness} is......

...Our evening walks.

She always walks by his side.
Collin had a hard day but he mustered up the strength to walk
about 1/4 of the amount he normally does.
I carried him the rest of the way.
He smiled, She smiled, and I smiled...
We were happy.

MORE fun and LOTS of pictures {from the weekend}

After I dropped the kids off at school on Friday I ran to Disneyland to play with My sister and her family. It was fun "just" being an Aunt and not have to juggle mommy and aunt at the same time. We has so much fun... of course... I mean how in the world could they not.. they had Aunt Ju Ju to play with! wink!

Kai signing {MORE}
Kai was WAY too cute at the HSM parade. He was dancing with them and copying every move they made.
He even assumed their ending pose... the one knee. LOVE IT!!!

Later that night Regan and I went to the Hotel to babysit so that my Sis and Brother in law could go out on a hot date. :)

Regan is so good with Kylee and she just LOVES her!!!

This was me.... baby strapped to me and....
while chasing this little Monkey around! So much fun!!
Thanks for letting us come and play with them!!!

Then on Saturday I went back to Disneyland ... this time with the kids. :)
I had SOOOO much fun this weekend. I LOVED the oppurtunity to be an Aunt and Sister. I HATE that we live so far away from each other. When I took them back to the airport on Monday I cried little when I got back to my car. It is hard not having any of my family here in California with me. It was a nice break from reality. Now, I am back to business and getting ready for next week.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Week 21 "Yellow" Photo Challenge

This week over at

The Photo Challenge is "Yellow"
I was looking through my pictures and decided on this one. I LOVE how the yellow sunglasses brings out the yellow flecks in her hazel eyes.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I told you FUN was on the list....

After Goofy's Kitchen we headed to Disneyland. It was so fun to watch Kai as he got excited about each new thing. We have been so many times and it is always fun to see the reaction of a child seeing it for the very first time. Kai fits right into this family because he LOVES Disneyland!!!

He was dancing and clapping the entire time on Small World.
He kept reaching back and holding Collin's hand. It was sooo sweet!!! At the end of each ride he would put his sweet little fingers together and show us the sign for MORE.
She's not just my Sister... She is my Friend.
(I think we look a lot alike.)
If you can't tell.... Kai LOVED Dumbo!!!
My sweet little Diva Alice... Oh, how I love that girl!!!
Collin LOVES it when we eat at the Mexican resturant because he gets to watch his trains.
(Big thunder mountain.)

Regan found an empty stage.... So, of course she had to put on a show!
It was a wonderful day and we had so much fun playing with family.
 Regan loved being the BIG cousin.