Monday, November 30, 2009
After church yesterday Regan went home with Nana and Papa. This has become a favorite Sunday ritual for her. Jason had to go to work. So, it was just Collin and I on our own. We eat dinner with Jason’s family ever Sunday… Oh, how I love the freedom of not having to worry about dinner. I loaded Collin up in the van and we were headed to Great Grandma Jo’s house to pick her up. We managed to get one block when I heard Collin gasping…. I looked back and Collin was vomiting and seizing. I hurried and pulled over to the side, made sure he was breathing, cleaned him up, and then headed back home. Collin was not doing well and the only way to get the seizure to stop was with an injection of valium. It is so heart breaking to see what TTD does to his little body. He finally passed out in my arms. Later Nana and Papa brought Regan home as well as some yummy soup for me to eat.
I was cuddling Collin in my bed when I heard Regan yelling “Mom…Mom…. MOM!!” Luckily Jason had just gotten home from work, it was midnight. Jason went into check on her and she said “my tummy hurts… I want Mommy!” Before we knew it she was in the bathroom throwing up. It was a hard night. She was up every thirty minutes. I made her a bed on the sofa and I slept next to her in the recliner. When Collin realized that it was Daddy in bed with him and not Mommy he wasn’t happy. So, at about 4:30 in the morning there I was…in the recliner, next to my little girl, and cuddling my little boy. I don’t think I even got an hour of sleep BUT at one point in the early hours of the morning I started to cry. Partly from lack of sleep and partly because of how grateful I am to be a MOM. To be the one that my kids want in the middle of the night. To be the one that makes the pain better when Collin is seizing… to be the one that pulls Regan’s hair back and wipes her sweet little face with a wet wash cloth….. Well, that is a gift a priceless gift that I am eternally grateful for.
This is a hard, smelly, tiresome gig… that of a mother BUT it is the most amazing and important gift and I am so blessed!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Notice a theme with her friends.... yes, she loves those boys. I think we will have issues when she is older.. wink!
We stayed and played with them until they turned on the Christmas lights! Oh, it was magical! I hate it that I didn't get any pictures... my battery died. :( The best part was not only were the lights magical BUT it snowed on us as well! It was so much fun and a great way to start our Thanksgiving weekend!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
My dear sweet family. Oh, I love them so much!
My wonderful husband who does so much for our family so that I can stay home and take care of our children. He is my best friend and my heart! He tells me he loves me all of the time. I still catch him checking me out across the room. wink! He is my eternal companion.
My sweet little boy who teaches me daily of strength and courage. He has a smile that makes the world right. He has a laugh that makes my heart smile! I can see the love of Christ in his sweet little eyes.
My darling little girl who teaches me so much about love and compassion. She makes me laugh all of the times and has the voice of an angel. She loves to sing and if music is playing than she is dancing! She always tells me she loves me and makes me feel so special!
The Gospel of Jesus Christ and my membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. There is no better thing than to know the love that my Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ have for me. The knowledge and testimony that families are eternal.
My wonderful Mother and Father in law. They watch our children so that we can have regular date nights. If Collin is not doing well... all I have to do is call. PaPa has helped give Collin so many blessings and Nana has gone with me to so many doctors appointments. They have comforted us and are a huge blessing to our family.
My parents (I already talked about them in a previous post.)
My wonderful Brother and Sisters... don't get me started. They are true friends and would do anything for me. They know how to make me laugh and pick me up when I am down.
My cute little home.
Target.... Oh, how I love you! wink! Your deals... your health benefits.... soda and popcorn for only 1.50 to keep Regan happy!
The amazing team of doctors that take care of my little boy!
My wonderful friends.... you are amazing!!!!!
My children's teachers. They both have amazing and devoted teachers that truly love what they are doing.
Disney Land. Yes, it is truly a magical place. It is the best pain medication that we have found.
There is so much more that I am thankful for but I will end with.....
I am thankful for all of you......
Yes, even you blog "stalkers" that don't leave comments... wink! The support... prayers... and love that you give to our family is felt.
Happy Thanksgiving Y'all!!!!
Monday, November 23, 2009
I feel very blessed to have loving parents.
They raised me to be the woman that I am. They taught me about Christ. They taught me to forgive. They taught me to love. They taught me to laugh. They taught me to believe in myself.
I am so lucky to have my Mom so close to me. I love our girl weekends together. My mom is such a comfort to me. She is one of my best friends. When ever we get together we ALWAYS laugh. We laugh so hard we get the weak feeling... wink! One of my favorite childhood memories with my mom was driving to Texas to live after graduation. My mom and I had a lot of time to talk and be silly. Then once we arrived to my sisters she took me shopping so that I could get new bedding and fun things for my room. It was such a special time to have her all to myself.
My Dad is BIG and he's BAD and he's my BIG, BAD DAD! I started saying that to him when I was a little girl and I still feel that way today. He has an amazing laugh and is one big kid. It is hard for him to be so far away. My sisters and brother are sure lucky to have him so close in Texas. One of my favorite childhood memories with my dad was flying with him in his airplane. I always loved going up with him. We would talk and often times he would let me fly the plane. It was always special time with him.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I am Thankful... for loving sacrifices.
My heart is full because I know that my wonderful sister and brother in law will be meeting their little boy for the first time today. Last week they started a very long journey to China and today they will be rewarded for their love and sacrifice. They have seen pictures but today they will hold him in their arms for the very first time. What a blessing this sweet little boy will be in their lives. I know that they will be amazing parents and will give him a beautiful life that he would not have had with out loving parents.
So, today I am grateful to the birth parents of Kai that left him knowing that they could not give him the life that he needed. This gesture of love and sacrifice made it possible for my sister to become a mom today.
I want to you know how very loved you are. Your Mommy and Daddy fell in love with you the second that they saw your picture. It was a hard and emotional road to make sure that they could be your parents. They did this because they knew that you were meant to be part of their family. They knew that it would not be complete with out you. Your parents choice to adopt was a decision of love. You are a very special little boy with very special parents. I love you so much and can not wait to meet you. You have a very special place in my heart. I love you tons!!!
Aunt Ju Ju
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
It is different and a little bit lonely at times. Now that Jason is at work my house is empty and quite in the morning. Don't get me wrong I enjoy it for the most part and get things done so much faster BUT at the same time it is too quite. It has made me stop and think about this new phase that I am in. I have both kids in school all morning and now my best friend is at work all day. I am so grateful that Jason has found work and things will finically be easier but I have to admit that it is going to take some time getting used to not having him around to help me out when I need it. This past week was my first week in this new phase and we stayed busy...
Friday, November 13, 2009
Last December Jason was laid off from work when his company went bankrupt. It was a VERY scary time for our family. It was a hard Christmas season. We made it through the holidays and choose to look at the situation as a blessing so that Jason could finish school. He had been going to school at nights as well as working full time. We did not get to see him much at all. So, Jason loaded his schedule up VERY heavy with the last classes he needed to get his degree and finished school that semester. It was such a sweet blessing to see him finally achieve a goal that he had set for himself. It was an amazing day!!
Shortly after Jason graduated reality hit us, as to how bad the job market really was. He started applying and looking for work right away but NOTHING was out there. The good ol’ state of California was one of the hardest hit states for the rate of unemployment. So, not only was Jason applying for every job possible BUT so were hundreds of other people.
I have to say that despite how hard it has been we have felt very blessed over this past year. Just before Jason was laid off I received a increased in hours pretty much doubling my income. This allowed us to stay out of debt and be able to pay all of our bills every month. We had to cut back quit a bit but still very much enjoyed each other and life every second that we could. Jason and I each had our hard moments during this hard time. The great thing is that when I was down he would pick me up and when he was down I would do the same for him. I know that it was very difficult for Jason as the father and provider to be in this position.
It seemed as though nothing was happening for Jason and he was starting to get very discouraged. So, he asked his father for a blessing. With in days of his sweet blessing Jason was getting interview after interview. Nothing much came from them BUT it rejuvenated him and it was just what he needed. This past Monday, almost a year from when he was laid off, Jason started his first day on his new job. Jason was hired by the best store in the world… wink!!! Yes, that’s right Target. He is now an executive manager for Target. They offered him his exiting salary from Advantage and the best part….. Benefits started from day one!!!!!!!!!!
This is such a blessing to our family and could not have come at a better time. We are pretty much at the end of our savings and I have been having HUGE problems with Collin’s insurance trying to get him into to see all of his doctors. I called one doctor begging to let me pay cash to see her but because of her contract she is unable to take cash patients. I was desperate and so worried when I went to fill he last seizure medication and the refill was denied because she wanted to see him. I went to me knees in prayer begging Heavenly Father to please help Collin and to help me find a way to make this work with this doctor. With in days Jason was hired and when he told me that benefits would start from the first day I started to weep.
It has been hard but I have never felt alone. I have felt the Lord’s hand in my life through out this entire year. We have been blessed so much and for that I am so grateful. I am grateful for the lessons that I was able to learn from this year. I am grateful for all of the time that I was able to spend with my husband and the time we had as a family together. I am so grateful that Regan never even realized that there was a problem. I am grateful for a loving Heavenly Father that knows exactly what I need. I might not always understand his plan for me but I do know that with each new challenge I have Heavenly Father cheering me on.
This holiday season will be very different than last year.
Today I am feeling very blessed!!!
To top it off the day that Jason was hired my sister and her husband found out that they will be leaving for China to pick up my little nephew on Wend.!!!
MY HEART IS FULL!!!!!!!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Then on Saturday we tested it out at the Aquarium. Again, Regan LOVED pushing her Bubba around in it. It was VERY crowded because of the Fall Festival that was going on. So, this made it hard to get around BUT it would have been hard with his wheel chair as well.
At the end of the day we were all smiles and still VERY happy with the stroller. Now, all I am asking myself is WHY IN THE WORLD DID I WAIT SO LONG TO GET IT???
So far so good!!!
He sat in Daddy's lap, in the front seat, while they drove through the car wash.
When Regan was going to the bathroom he kept opening the door and yelling at her, like any big brother would do to torture his little sister.
Today at the aquarium, as I walked next to Collin, he reached out and held my hand.
When it was time to leave he threw a fit just like any other little boy would do.
Daddy was watching football and Collin, with a HUGE smile on his face, kept turning the t.v. off like any little boy would do to torture his sport loving Daddy.
Collin said Momma today.... a lot.
While looking me right in the eyes and with a grin on his face he threw the pumpkins and candle sticks in the middle of my table on to the floor.... like any little stinker would do.
Today Collin laughed a lot.... I think some of his angel friends came and played with him.
Today Collin smiled a bunch...
Today was a GOOD day!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I know.. can you believe it... Christmas will be here next month!!!
I LOVE hand made gifts!!!
So, with that said this month I will be busy making.....
Fun, big, and chunky necklaces for
some of the beautiful women in my life.
(I made this one today... but I am keeping
this one for myself.. wink!)
I have had some requests for some pretty hair pieces
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I have been having LOTS of back issues and constantly throw it out lifting Collin's 50 (plus) pound wheel chair in and out of my van.
So, I broke down and got Collin this wonderful stroller.
Why did I wait so long????
Ok, well I know... the price.
I had a hard time paying $725.oo for a stroller (anything that is " for disability" is ALWAYS over priced.)
BUT it is sooo worth it!!!
If for no other reason it is going to save my back.
It only weighs 15 pounds!!!!!
Yes, I know.. I can lift it one handed and it doesn't hurt my back.