Sunday, July 18, 2010

Every once and a while it happens.....

After I finished bathing Bubba, putting a clean diaper on him, changing his bandages, putting his steriods on him, getting him dressed, and giving him his ten medications....
I layed my sleeping ten year old "forever baby" in his bed and hooked him up to his machine.

I walked back into the living room feeling a little sad and overwhelmed from the week. I looked at Jason and asked him with tears in my eyes "Do you think parents who don't have to do this EVERY night realize how truly lucky they are?"  Then he looked at me and said exactly what I needed to hear.

"Do you remember that little girl from the waiting room?"

There was an oh so sweet little girl in the waiting room who's parents aren't blessed with daily smiles like we are with Bubba. That simple question was the reminder that I needed... that no matter what, no matter how hard some days might feel I am truly blessed. God has blessed me with a daily reminder of his love for me.

7 comments:

Michelle said...

Thank you for my reminder...I also, am truly blessed as a mother. Our daily challenges seem trivial when we take the time to compare them to those of others. I will make it my goal to be more mindful of those blessings as I begin to feel sad or stressed. I love you, SIS! Thanks for the perspective check! Love you!!!

Anonymous said...

julie, i had a child that was hurt beyond belief and it took me forever to relise it wasnt the end and that my heavenly father had gave me the tools and resourses to help my child through that most difficult time. you are a resource to me you have taught me that even though its hard and even though they hurt we as mothers are given strength to carry on/ i know that through the darkest/saddest moments i wasnt walking i was being carried... thank you for being such an example.

Simply Sara said...

tears...
may you be so overwhelmed by His love every single day- especially the harder ones.
you are beautiful.

Rachel said...

Isn't it amazing how our Heavenly Father places us with helpmeets who also meet our deepest needs.

What really touched me, was that beyond empathy or encouragement, your husband understood the blessing of your sacrifice. The incredible return on your investment into your family... and it is radiated in your precious children's smiles.

Thank you for sharing this.

(You have no idea how much Bubba's smile does for me just through the screen...)

Anonymous said...

I have been a distant follower (a friend of Jodee C's) and my son was born at 24 weeks. He has had 7 surgeries and will have his eighth this year. This is the first year we have not been to the doctor every two weeks. I cherish my baby boy so much( he is now 3 1/2). Now that he is more well I sometimes take that for granted. I posted pictures of him everywhere so when I am in that moment of being to busy to sit there and kiss his 10 owies or make sure he is being played with even when I know I have a billion things to do that I will actually sit there and do that for him. I realize he may not have been here to be my pride and joy. And I do it for parents like you. Lucky for you, you guys get to bask in his amazing smile and love him no matter what. You are so amazing and I love reading about your family. You give me strength to carry on by your posts.

Jim and Allison said...

You are a one SUPER Mama! You do so much for him, he will eternally be grateful for what you do to help him be comfortable in this life.

Amy Eaton said...

You really are inspiring to me...I think about you all the time espcially on days when I may feel a little overwhemled with all the "Mom will you get me this and that and do this and go there and buy this....i think Grrrr ask me one more thing and you will be in your rooms the rest of the summer!!! But then I see your sweet little boys smilie in my mind and remeber how turly blessed I am. Thanks!!