Tuesday, December 7, 2010


Last night was hard.

Bubba was in pain, couldn’t breath, and couldn’t sleep.
I sat there from 12 to 5 holding my baby praying, crying.
No matter how hard I prayed it did not change the night.
It was his lot to bare for the night.
It was hard for me as a mom to not be able to do anything.

This morning I took him into the doctor’s office.
I got some not so great news.
Not horrible news but it was not what I wanted to hear.
It is hard hearing words like “progression of his illness” or “deterioration”.
We walked away with his medication dosages upped and a prescription for a new machine.
He will have to go to a new doctor….. One more to add to a very long list.
I was sad and tired.
I sent Jason a message and let him know.
I called my mom and cried.
I called my sister and cried.
It was a hard day.

THEN Jason came home and said….
“I got my girls a surprise!”
 Regan opened the bag to see two new pair of PJ's…..
One for Mommy and one for Regan.
Jason knew that it had been a hard day and he wanted to put a smile on my face.
He remembered how this time last year I was VERY sick.
I had told him that I wanted some cute Mommy/ Regan matching PJ's that I had seen.
He came home with them and Regan and I were so happy!
It put a smile on my sick face.
Today he wanted to put a smile on my sad, tired face…..
And you know what…
He did!!!

Thank you Honey for always putting a smile on my face!


Rachel said...

Sometimes just simple thoughtfulness can turn our whole day around.

I am so sorry for your rough night. So sorry for Bubba's pain and struggles. So thankful for the divine strength that our Heavenly Father gives us in our time of need - even when we don't feel strong.

(It's the love, isn't it? That keeps us going? It makes things hurt, but it's so worth it, no?)

Jessica said...

What a sweet husband!! You are a blessed wife and mom!

As I read your post, my mind was drawn to the passage of scripture that says, "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." Psalm 46:1-3

Through the hard times it is good to be reminded of this! Praying for you friend!
:) Jessica

Naomi said...

Aww so sweet of your husband. What cute pj's! I'm so sorry it was a rough night. I will say a prayer for you and Bubba!

Rochelleht said...

I am SO sorry that Bubba's not doing well. That is so very very hard. I'm so glad you have a fabulous husband. That can make everything better. Almost...

You have my prayers.

Simply Sara said...

eeeeee! look at you two sweet ladies in matching jammies :)

what a thoughtful hubby!

my heart just hurts for you, bubba and your family. praying for you guys!
hope tonight is a better night!

Anonymous said...

I read this and cried...I don't know you but I wish I could make things all better for you! You are a sweet mommy and I can always feel your love you have for your family!
God Bless your sweet family.
Praying for you,
Love, from Wisconsin

Kristin said...

I got on the computer just now, and knew I needed to come to your blog. I thought "Julie will have something uplifting to say." As I read on, my heart just went out to you and sweet little Bubba. And it made me realize how precious my little "monsters" are, and that I really need to cherish them and be a better mommy! My prayers are with your family!

Foursons said...

Oh, I hate to hear y'all had such a rough night w/a not so positive doctor appt today. I am so thankful you know Jesus.

The pj's are cute, cute, cute. What an amazing man you married.

The Reed's said...

I love reading your blog! I makes me relize that love of your family is really all that is needed. We all have hard days but it is the love and thought fullness of our family that lift us up. You are such a strong mom!

You guys are in our prayers tonight!

Susan said...

Last Christmas I didn't even know about your family. This Christmas, you are constantly in my prayers. I'm so sorry that Bubba (and you) had such a heartbreaking night. None of you deserves that kind of anguish, physical or emotional. I'm even sadder to hear the results of the doctor visit. It made me cry. But I am always grateful to be taught that even the most painful, difficult challenges can be borne with grace amid the tears. You are a powerful teacher.

The pajamas are adorable! What a sweet, thoughtful man you married. It's easy to see how much he loves you all because he thinks and acts with his heart.