A broken but grateful heart

A broken but grateful heart.

I can’t even begin to express in words how grateful we are for the out pouring of love and support we have received over the past 10 days. My Dad and Step Mom had arrived the day of Bubba’s passing for a visit from Texas. It was a huge comfort to have them here with us. Jason’s father and my father were a huge part in getting things ready for Bubba’s service. The Dads went and checked out funeral homes and the cemetery beforehand to make things easier for Jason and me. The next day my baby sister was at my door step. That night my Mom and sister arrived to be here with us. The next day my brother and last sister came from Texas to be with us.  Yes, all three of my sisters, my brother, my mom, and my dad were by my side within days.  To say that I felt loved wouldn’t even begin to describe my feelings. Jason’s family also rallied around us, four out of five of his siblings were here within days to be with us. Everyone help take care of our sweet girl, taking her for fun adventures and time with cousins. While Regan was playing Jason and I had to make hard decisions about our sweet boy and what we wanted for him, decisions that no parent should ever have to make. It was hard but there were so many tender mercies along the way, no doubt sent to us by Bubba, to help us along the way. {One day I will share some of these special moments with you.}

Bubba’s service was this past Wednesday and it was perfect. Over five hundred people packed the chapel to come and celebrate Bubba’s life. This was an overwhelming show of love and support for our boy. {Especially considering it was on a Wed. morning.} Pa Pa gave Bubba’s eulogy and it was beautiful. It was filled with memories of our Bubba and all of the things that he loved, fun memories, and of course stories of Bubba causing trouble. There was a beautiful musical number by friends and it all ended with a beautiful slideshow of Bubba accompanied by our friend on the violin playing small world and Baby of Mine from Dumbo.

Thank you to everyone that helped in anyway with this beautiful day of celebrating our sweet Bubba’s life.

Many of you have asked about Regan and how she is doing. Yesterday was the first day that I truly had to be a mother again. There were so many Aunts and Grandmas around that she was well taken care of and loved. She is doing very well, almost too well, in some ways it makes us nervous. So, tomorrow the three of us are packing up the car and hitting the road. We need time to be together just the three of us, to talk, to cry, and to reconnect after all that has happened. We are headed to San Fransico for a bit. 

Thank you again for your sweet messages, emails, texts, and cards. Thank you for your prayers, we feel them…. Keep them coming.

Philippian 4:13 I can do all things through Chirst wich strengthens me.