So, Dr. your saying his heart is strong......

Hmmmm….. Where do I start?

Well, you know that as mom’s we pretty much know everything.. Right??

There must have been a manual given to me at some point but I guess I have lost it.

So, I have to rely on my motherly instinct and prayer.

I knew that something was wrong with Bubba…. Like really wrong.

He’s just not been himself; it is heart breaking to see.

He has been spending too many days like this…..

{side note: to any of you that said not to get a dog... that it would be to much work on top of caring for Bubba. You were so wrong.:) This sweet dog has been AMAZING!! He is so in tune with Bubba and is right by his side when he is sick. He is also a HUGE comfort to Regan. Serisoulsy, I can't believe what a blessing a little dog has been to our family.}

We haven’t seen this nearly enough………

Regan notices it as well.

The other day Bubba was happy and smiling and Regan said

“Oh, there’s that old Bubba I love and miss!”

So, I used my mother’s instinct and started taking Bubba into see his doctors.

It was obvious right away by the amount of tests that were ordered, that they were worried just as I was.

We were told some scary things at first....

BUT

“we must wait and get the test results back first” the doctor said.

So, that’s just what we have been doing… waiting.

Luckily, I am married to a Knight in Shining armor… remember?

He dropped everything to be by my side for these important appointments.

I love that sweet Knight of mine!

Ok, so now you are asking….  What is going on!?!?!?

 

Well, there are several things going on with our sweet little Bubba right now.

1^st he off he is having tummy issues and will be needing surgery soon to help with the constant vomiting.

 

 

2^nd Bubba’s levels are off, way off, so he will soon be getting either a broviac main line or a portacath and starting infusion treatments for Bubba every 3 weeks. {After insurance approves it all of course}

3rd Bubba's sweet lungs are having a hard time. Do you want the good news or the bad news first??

Ok, so the good news.... Bubba does NOT have Pulmonary hypertension!!! His heart is doing good!!! Wahoo to that! We have always known that his heart is the biggest and best part of him! :)

So, now the bad... well Bubba is in respiratory distress and will soon be needing the help of a trachea and the help from a ventilator to help him.

We first have to get our Bubba healthy before doing the trachea.

So, he is on a lot of medications and they are running lots of tests so that they can make the best decisions when it comes to our special little hero.

This has been HARD.

Nope, no other way to put it.

There have been lots of tears shed, prayers said, and kisses stolen.

I am nervous as to what our new "normal" will be.

BUT

I will figure it out quickly and take care of my sweet baby how ever I need to.

I will continue to love on Regan and answer her questions.

I know that she is worried.

It breaks my heart.

We are hoping that OUR HAPPY and AWAKE Bubba will return after we start this process.

Please keep Bubba in your prayers. Please keep Regan in your prayers.

Thank you all so much for your love and support.

I am blessed with an amazing support system of friends and family.

Yesterday was hard but then I looked around and was reminded how truly blessed I am.....

two sweet friends that rushed to my rescue with out me asking....

my wonderful best friend by my side....

my oh so sweet mother in law that scooped Regan up from school and took care of her for me...

my wonderful mother that is willing to jump on a plane at a moments notice.....

my sweet sisters that know just what to say.....

my loving Heavenly Father that loves and supports me in my hardest moments.

We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, "Why did this happen to me?" unless we ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes our way. ~Author Unknown

Thank you for your love and support web friends. :)..... and keep those prayers coming.