It might be different, but that's ok.....

Yesterday in the doctors office I had "one" of those talks with Regan.

Collin was happy and playing on the table.
Regan was trying to climb on my lap and still the attention away from him.
Then the questions started
"Mommy, will Bubba have to get a shot?"
"Mommy, what are they going to do to him?"
"Why are we ALWAYS having to take Bubba into the doctors?"
With her questions coming fast and furious I tried my hardest to keep up by responding..
"No, he will not need a shot. They are going to listen to his chest, look at his ears and make sure that he is all better."
Then she said
"Mommy I wish they could really make him all better... you know normal like you and me."
My heart sunk.
"Regan, Bubba is very much normal BUT a different kind of normal and that is OK."
Then she looked up at me with those beautiful eyes and said the sweetest thing
"I know Mommy but I wish he could walk and talk.... I wish people could see him how I see him."
"Well, Regan how do you see him?"
Then she said "Mommy all I see is Bubba."
She touched me so much.
When she looks at him all she sees is her brother.
I know that she desperately wants to have him understand her jokes
or chase her around on the playground.
She knows him and understands his wants.
She just wants him to experience EVERYTHING that she enjoys.
That is when I told her that her growing up days {childhood} and Bubba's will be different and that is OK.
It took Mommy a while to understand that and I want you to know that it is OK.
You don't need to feel bad that you can do things that he can't.
He loves watching run, and thinks its funny when you splash him in the bath, and he probably wouldn't even like french fries even if he could eat them.
It is OK.

I worried when I was pregnant with Regan that I would be placing a huge burden on my unborn child. I worried about how different their lives would be.
Often times I still have to remind myself....
It might be different.... and that is OK.